The Wedding plan part 2

Wedding Planning Part 2:

Update on my wedding plans...

Home: Thank God that we have bought our flat and are just waiting for the keys to our new place! It's quite overwhelming signing that loan from HDB of 6 digit figure... makes me feel like I've just signed my life away..... =( We're probably going to start renovating our place in Jul or so... hopefully we'll make it in time for the wedding!
Church wedding: K has agreed to be our overall coordinator! Thanks K! =) We're still in the midst of sorting out the details like the theme, the passage to be preached on etc. But it's coming along! Happy...

Gowns and stuff: We'll be doing our pre wedding photoshoot in Jul! Quite excited abt it I must say... have shortlisted some gowns which I'm using for the photoshoot... XLQ has already made his suit and it will be ready in Jun. Hopefully it won't rain on the day of the shoot... for those who purchased packages from bridal boutiques, you know how they try to get to you to buy more pictures, exceeding the ones they've given in the package and people pay astromical amounts for the photos! PRAY hard that I will not get trapped in one of those situations! Being such a photo person (I love flipping through pictures), i know i will prob be quite tempted... but I WILL NOT SUCCUMB to it!! I will get pp to hold me accountable... hehe. I can actually flip through my old photos over and over again, smile at the same old silly pictures... I never get tired of photos... that's why the danger is there and so real!! Haha, I think XLQ is super worried I will go crazy over the photos, but I definitely don't want to. It's just not worth the money. There are really better ways to spend the money!

There are still so many many things to do!! Hopefully I won't get too stressed out abt it.. knowing myself too well, I probably will! It's tough I guess when I have expectations of the way I want things to turn out, after all, this is a once in a lifetime event, and may not be able to have it due to various reasons... it can be quite disappointing at times, but I guess I'm learning to deal with it all and keep telling myself... it's just a wedding, it's just a wedding, don't be too obsessed! Sometimes I feel pressured to be like other Christian girls, who have such simple weddings. I feel like sometimes if I'm godly, I need to have a wedding as simple as possible... I shld spend as little as possible and just have a very christ centred wedding, focus on the eternal... Not that I want everything perfect, or extravagant or have a superstar type wedding, just that I have this internal battle on how i shld plan the wedding.. haha, i don't know pp will understand what I'm talking abt... I think basically, I just don't deal with differences very well. Whenever XLQ and i don't see things eye to eye, I get bit upset... i think it's my non confrontational and conflict adverse nature at work, just hoping that everything will work out and we will see eye to eye on everything... I know it's impossible, but u know, it's called hoping.. haha... guess i just need to learn how to deal with differences and conflicts better...

I guess God is also teaching me about myself more and more through the wedding preparation. It's just not easy putting 2 people together, given the different upbringing, family culture, personalities... I can't imagine if we don't have a common belief in God, I think the arguments will probably be very aimless and be very self centred... I guess sometimes they still are, but having God in the picture is a constant reminder to myself that there is definitely more to the wedding event...

We'll keep praying for the wedding and the marriage to come! =)