For whoever is still reading my blog, sorry for not updating it for such a looong time... partially it's because my office has put firewalls for many many websites, including any blogspot sites, friendster, even YOUTUBE is blocked!! =( Killed our entertainment in the office! Haha... so I also haven't been able to keep up with pp through their blogs. Plus, I have been extremely busy with flat renovations and wedding preparations. Who would have thought wedding preparation was so time consuming? Sigh... I remember telling my friends that I will NOT be a stressed out bride when it's my turn. I will be cool... hahaha... boy, was I wrong!!
Think I have been rather impatient, snappy, high strung at times these past few mths... and it has been difficult cos XLQ is busy preparing for his exams and is quite high strung too... sometimes we really lose sight of the joy of the wedding itself and are way too bogged down by the preparations. I worry about the details, though friends said they will help me out, I feel so responsible to do all the little things myself... it's really tiring!
Few things went wrong along the way... my kitchen cabinet wasn't what I wanted at all... the guy offered to repaint parts of it, the end product looked like it was half done and I was really upset... the whole process took about 1.5 mths long. He's replacing the doors for us, but they will be really plain, different from what I wanted initially... OH yes, we had the most difficult time with this furniture company (won't name it publicly), but they insisted the dining table we bought was 1.6m long when we were SUPER DUPER 100% sure that in the shop, they showed us and sold us a 1.8m long table! It's really ridiculous... there were some other out of stock/discontinued stock problem with our purchase... the whole thing "ping pong" for like 1.5 months, taking up so much time, calling the person back and forth. It was terrible.. in the end, we returned the table and I bought our dining table over Ebay!! Delivered within 3 days and we love it! Haha... and it was even cheaper than what we originally spent... hmm, what else? our wedding dinner is expanding and exploding! Parents on both sides are adding more than expected... and it's going to be a huge dinner, very different from what both of us would have liked... but it's ok really, cos we know that the dinner is really meant for the parents more than for us. Logistically, it would be quite crazy though... none of those cosy nice little dinners.... Obi has moved to XLQ's house... =( I miss his presence at home... wagging his tail with a cloth in his mouth greeting me... but he seems happy at his place. His dad walks him very regularly and he has many friends! He has 2 border collies and a rabbit as neighbours... he enjoys the sounds and sights very much cos he's kept in the front porch. He gets to see cabs, cars, cyclist, joggers, and people walking pass... he barks more cos he loves the things he's seeing... though I miss him, I'm very thankful that the transition has been really good..
Anywayz, I'm counting down! Slightly more than 2 weeks to go!! Praying hard that I stay healthy... eating multi vitamins every day... =) It's coming so soon, I'm bit scared actually! Once in a while, I wake up with butterflies in my tummy... haha, u know, the feeling you get when you're having exams? Yes, that feeling... XLQ has been having weird dreams abt the wedding too... think both of us are bit tired out by this process. Sometimes, no matter how much friends try to reassure us, I still feel bit anxious abt the wedding... not about the person or abt marriage life, but abt the event... guess that's a good thing huh? At least I'm not freaking out abt the person. Haha.. and for the marriage life, I guess I can't see beyond Dec 10th at the moment. So I'm just taking one step at a time for marriage life. Haha... =)
Do pray for us as we go into the last leg of preparation. Thank God for so many wonderful friends who have offered to help... pray for XLQ's exams coming up next Monday! That we will continue to focus on God. It's ironic... wedding is supposed to be a happy event, but it has unconsciously become a burden... it's so bad. Sigh... and instead of drawing closer to God for strength and comfort, I feel that my walk with God is not as close as before and I'm depending too much on myself, not praying enough, being really snappy, unkind to pp around me... =( feel really lousy sometimes... guess I need to be more disciplined about my time and not be wavered by the circumstances... yeah... thanks so much for reading! =) I will leave you with some stupid photos my friends and I took during our 10 person halloween party! Haha...
1 comment:
that is one scary picture (with the chopper). i feel your pain - having moved house heaps in the past few years with family i can understand some of the stress, so much so that we bought a house fully furnished this time.
i can also identify with the overwhelming feeling of being swamped by the world and people (even godly ones, even godly partners) and seeing God growing more distant with each passing minute. He sees and understands, and is as close as the mention of His name. Acknowledge Him in all that you do, and watch Him be sovereign and do His thing. God is very very real and very very sovereign even in the chaos that seems to envelope us from time to time.(multiplied many times over by the fact ur in Singapore haha)
Do take time in solace to talk to God, even for 5-10 mins in your garden where your dog used to hang. And look forward to your wedding - it's the start of a beautiful partnership in Christ, and for His glory.
See you in a few days Huils, where we will fellowship and share of God's goodness in our lives! :)
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